My Favourite Time of Year
I cannot tell you how excited I am for Christmas this year, except to express some shock that I realise this is the least excited I've ever been.
It's a funny feeling. I don't if it's simply a result of growing older, or that this year it's shadowed by the knowledge that after these Christmas holidays comes some exams and essay deadlines, but all I know is that it's a little nerve wracking.
I can't wait now for Christmas day, it's just that I've lost that excitement I usually have.
In my family, although not intentionally, we have quite a few Christmas Traditions. Yet this year, with one of my brothers already moved out, and another engaged, I'm struck by the realisation that the Christmas I know won't be quite the same this year or in years to come, and I'm not sure how I feel about that. Maybe it's a chance for new traditions, for appreciating seeing everyone together again, but right now I'm still unsure of what it will be like. I can't predict this year.
Whereas as children we would have rushed downstairs together at the crack of dawn to tear open toys and books and half the bloody Argos catalogue, this year is different. My oldest brother won't be here until after Christmas day (as far as I know), and the engaged one is flying over to America on Boxing day to see his fiancée. My other brother and I had to be woken by our parents last year, because rushing downstairs isn't as exciting as it used to be, and getting up at the crack of dawn was no longer really our thing.
Although, at the same time, Christmas is the only time of year I get to see many of my extended family and friends. I come from a family of globe trotters (that's where I got it from :P) who I awe at in wonder when they all manage to get home for Christmas every year. I love that. About two days after Christmas my aunt hosts a massive family/friends party, and it's always amazing to see everyone. In fact, it's the only time of year I don't mind sloppy family kisses and bear hugs, because I love these people so much, and it's almost as if that love grows when we're apart. You see my family is a bit like the Home Alone family, where in the lead up to Christmas everyone is together all the time.
I think that's what I love most about Christmas, now I'm a bit older: seeing everyone together again. My family is such that we grew up with most of the family either living just down the road or round the corner, and now? Now we all live on different continents, bear in mind that there is loads of us, so it's really something when we're all together.
Really, if you are still young enough to have all your brothers, sisters and family just down the hall, all of you get up at the crack of dawn and appreciate that you can. Because, even though I'm excited for Christmases future, and I can't help but be somewhat nostalgic for Christmases Past.
Love, and Merry Christmas!