Life Currently #3
When God created the human race, I think He gave us one magic power. The word ‘sorry’. Or at least those who overuse the word seem to think He did.
It’s amazing how many; how horrific; how hurtful; how unforgivable an act sorry seems to have the mythical reach of healing. You could wipe half of mankind and most people will still be sat there angling for an apology. Like really?! Someone ploughs through your entire life and mutters a two syllable word and suddenly the world is all roses and rainbows? Why do we let people steamroll their way through our existence? Shatter it and break it? Totally annihilate it and then feel okay because someone somewhere, most probably in school at the age of 5, told us that as long as they say that one word everything is okay again? It isn't.
I don't know how many of you have, like me, been following the Stanford Rape Case (read more here). Fearing it would have a negative impact on his future career as an athlete; a man who had raped an unconscious woman behind a dumpster got a significantly reduced sentence of six months instead of the expected 14 years. His father wrote a letter to the judge explaining that his son was extremely sorry for what he had done, and while a petition for a longer sentence by the students and professors of stanford got more than 95,000 signatures, the sentence was held up.
Sorry can’t fix what people take away. It can’t undo what is suddenly done that you didn't want done. Sorry won’t bring back nights you lost or days you gave up. Sorry doesn't make it okay. Sorry isn't even an emotion. It’s a word we reach for so that we don’t have to feel guilt. It’s a quick fix. For ourselves and the ones we hurt.
I don’t like sorry. I think it’s lazy. And easy. And disrespectful. And a get out of jail free card.
EATING: all the ice cream I can get my hands on and lots of summery fruit
DRINKING: ice-cream soda (we're having actual summery weather in scotland you see)
READING: DIY manuals of how to unlock my old phone
LISTENING: to Taylor Swift & Miley Cyrus
WATCHING: Person Of Interest (it's so addictive!)
BOOKMARKING: stuff for my birthday
WANTING: to eat all the food mum's bought/ made for the party on Sunday
LOOKING: forward to Sunday when I'm finally 18!
ENJOYING: being on holiday
WAITING: for my birthday woop woop
WONDERING: about all the things that need to be improved in the world
LOVING: all this time to relax
HOPING: for a sunny birthday because it's been so lovely and the weather is supposed to change :(
MARVELLING: that in four months I'll be living in Hyderabad
NEEDING: to pick out my mama's birthday present ( we share a birthday along with my aunt and my cousin)
WEARING: shorts and summery dresses
NOTICING: how much I've grown this past year
KNOWING: that underneath it all, the world is beautiful
LAUGHING: about silly puns I see on Tumblr like Can February March? No but April May
THINKING: about all the things I have to do for India
DAYDREAMING: about the future and all the things I might do one day.
WISHING: for so many things
FEELING: sorry about the state of the world